My two spiritual threads at prayer meeting

Hello all,

Just wanted to share about my experience at the Corporate Prayer Meeting last Friday at Suntec. A little background, on that day, I was quite tired by back to back seminars and was also pondering on the issue of friendships in general, and biblical friendships as well. Admittedly, there were also feelings of discouragement by what I perceived was the spiritual condition of the care group when we met just before prayer meeting.

So I went in with a heavy heart and at the same time, also desiring for God to answer my request which was for spiritual direction. Through the time of praise and worship, prayer and prophecies, God lifted my heart. It took quite a while though, a lot of pouring out unto God, tension and surrender of thoughts, emotions and exchanging it with God. But when your inner being truly exalts God in song, then the heart really feels lighter and you are able to be fully present – in spirit and in truth -- to praise and worship Him with abandonment.

Perhaps that’s why sometimes we don’t experience God in praise and worship because we hold burdens and cannot worship in spirit, or have unconfessed sins and cannot worship in truth. But God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth (John 4:24) including the verse so that you know that it’s not based on random or own talk but biblical.

For myself, God reminded me of some things. He reminded me of faith. Where does my faith lie? Does it lie in the things that I see? Does it lie in the visible things such as people doing what seems right? Is that why I felt discouraged when I don’t see that, which further reveals that perhaps my faith then had been based on things that are seen? Sometimes, it’s good to go through rough patches then because you are required to put your faith in Christ alone. Faith not in yourself, for you know full well how fallible you are, not in the things you do or don’t do, faith not in people whose hearts are deceitful, but faith in Christ alone, clinging unto God or else you cling unto nothing.

The other thing He reminded me of was this: follow Jesus. I asked for spiritual direction because I’m about to graduate soon and wanted God to answer me like ‘go here, go there’. In geographic terms, it’s like hoping that God would tell me directly: go to Clementi MRT or go to Dhoby Ghaut MRT. But the reply was, ‘just take the MRT’. But I thank God for it. I think God answered me based on what I need, not based on what I want. Follow Jesus was actually the best answer to my seeking for spiritual direction. I needed to know that true spiritual direction was not about where I’m going to be but it’s about following our incarnational God – Jesus.

So I was glad for these two spiritual experiences that God had given to me, adding two more threads to this tapestry of my life that God is weaving. I pray that as you make sense of your own experiences with God and where He is leading you, it would be an exciting inner journey and of knowing God more and more!

Love,
Ah Guan